Bad Night

A bad night to end the day off yesterday. I guess it was my foul mood which caused the whole incident. Nevertheless, it felt god that I got it off my chest. Earlier rather than later, for it may get worse in the future. 

Going to watch two great plays today - Wicked and Breaking Dawn. One is a movie and the other is some Broadway musical. Kind of looking forward to it. It is a first time watching a musical, hence the excitement. Most importantly, it is the company. Hopefully, all will turn well later on.

Liverpool drew Oldham for FA Cup. They better win this match comfortably, if not they will be doomed man. Sometimes, it feels really tough to be a Liverpool Supporter. It feels like you are standing by a criminal who is waiting for the verdict to be passed on. But if one were to be optimistic, I foresee a very bright future ahead for Liverpool, provided these young starlets can match up or go one notch further than their Manchester City counterparts. Money is the root of evil. In the world of football.

TeeHee.

Stomach Flu Again!

Had close to 8 hours of sleep last night. Satisfying sleep? You bet. It was even better to witness the victory Chelsea had over Manchester City. One word to describe it. Sweet.

I personally detest a one horse or two horse title race. To me, it just spoils the whole meaning of competition. What is the point when you only have two teams which have the quality to challenge for the league title? Take a look at the Spanish League. In the past, they have teams like Valencia or Athletico Madrid to challenge Real Madrid and Barcelona. Right now, the whole league seems to be centered around Real and Barca. It really dilutes the whole attraction of the league.

Enough of football. Today was a day like any other. After the Chelsea-Manc match, it is time for the Straits Times and my breakfast. Soon after, I switch on MioTV to watch the latest episodes of the Channel 8 dramas, Code of Honour and A Song to Remember. There are many people who like to criticise local productions and I have no idea why. The quality of local productions can never meet the standards that their overseas counterpart but I do see an improvement over the years. For example, M complained that a particular scene in the Code of Honour was too exaggerated. In that scene, Elvin Ng stayed in the air for approximately 10 seconds and within that time, he managed to execute some Kung Fu moves that resembled that of Ong Bak. People starts to say that this is a pack of bullshit and that Singapore productions are nonsensical.  If that is the case, why do these critics bother to watch Ong Bak or Hong Kong Kung Fu movies? What make these overseas productions better than the local ones? Just because such fighting scenes originated from them? 

There has always been this saying that, "If locals don't even want to help the local people, how then can the locals survive?". This phrase has been deeply etched in my mind, and I strongly feel that this is the reason why people fail to return to their roots and always look up to foreigners. Really detest such attitude, but what can I do? An individual's fight is impossible to repel the forces of globalization.

I can only hope for the change. Why? I don't like the way you are commenting on stuff. It feels very constrictive. Hopefully, you get what I truly mean and not misconstrue it...

Holidays!

A short one month break has finally arrived. It will be a good breather after this crazy semester.

I just got out of the bathroom and the first thing I want to rant is how run down my body has become. Right after my exams, I have this inflamed jaw joint. It happened it my left side of my jaw and it was the first time i have encountered an inflamed joint. This ailments only happen to old people right?!?!?!

In any case, I went to the polyclinic to do a checkup and it allayed my initial fears of a dislocated jaw ( Yes, I always like to assume the worst case scenario so as to act an insurance scheme). My aw has recovered after a few days of medication but now I am having constant headaches. Headaches that come pounding on the skull. It is really turning me off. I have no wish to see the doctor again as I do not feel like fattening their wallets. Somehow, I traced that the problem lies with my flattened pillow, which I have been using for close to 15 years, and to a considerable extent, the chill of the december weather is causing my insides to rock and roll abit.

Yesterday, I had a great meet up session with the navy pals. It was a fun session disrupted by my late arrival. Oopsy. This meet up was a small gathering before each of them jets off on their overseas trip. Egypt, Japan, Taiwan and Australia are going to be their playgrounds. Me? Holed up in this tiny island!

I have completed Rich Dad Poor Dad. A week to complete it. Shame. I received a snide remark when someone said that he read it during his secondary school days. Ouch! But hey, look! Who is the one who used up his 10K bonus payout in one shot? It is a book that everyone who is entering the adult life should read. The book gives great insight on what we should look beyond our current education system and how we should take initiative and risks in order to accomplish greater things in life. In this case, to accumulate more wealth and be financially independent ahead of everybody else. It is clear that this book is a strong advocate of capitalism and financial education, but hey, this economic ideology is bound to stay and it does not seem to fail any time within our lifetime. Great book that everyone should go get!

Alright, the headache is still here. Damn. oh anyway, i realized that I did not kept to my promise i attempting to blog every single day during my semester, It was a shame. again. Oh no! I used "shame" twice in on post. the reality is that everyone is diving into the realms of twitter-verse and Facebook-verse?, and the blogosphere is resembling the junk around the earth atmosphere. So many of them are neglected and abandoned. This somehow affects my mood in blogging. Why? Firstly, there are lesser blogs to read up and take ideas from, and secondly, only the models are blogging. Hahas! It is not realy the case of taking ideas, but rather the whole atmosphere of blogging. It is no longer there. Well, the models are still blogging, reason is simply because, people are still so "kaypoh" and interested in their pictures. Fullstop.

Ok, ta-da. Time to rest my mind... not to forget, I still have an article that I have yet to start on. It is for the school magazine!

I am starting to wonder how did I manage to blog so much in the past. Was it really in me that I was able to write so freely? or was it just a spur of an era ( secondary school to JC)?

Intense battle coming up. Hope that I can bring everything right on track again.  How things will turn out, I will just have to swallow hard and move on. Life is about constant learning, university shall not be the only way to achieve success.

Waking Up

I have no idea why I can't wake up early just to revise for my work. What is happening to me? Just damn disappointed with everything.

Realised I made a stupid mistake yesterday. Wtf. Why is it so damn hard to have faith?

Hope all turns well. Just going to get focus and complete the next 4 papers.

Hands are feeling itchy, hence, led to the creation of this post.

Exams are here again, stress is back up for grabs. Or should i say "As are back up for grabs".
The cycle is continuous and non stop.

All I want for is a significant improvement to justify the sacrifices I have made for this semester. A remarkable improvement. I need it so so badly.

A sudden sense of awakening. Reading throughout the essay of a non-ps major makes me want to push myself even harder. I do not believe that I cannot reach that standard.

Sometimes, admits all this competition, doubts starts to surface within myself. Have my academic ability dropped so much? Some people could partake in so many school activities, stay up late drinking and partying, and still, their results are among the top ranks of the cohort. Yes, that may be the minority, but there are still a huge number who can perform above the mean. For me, why do I stand lower than that? Have I not put in the necessary effort? Where did I go wrong?

Will competition taper off somewhere? Or, is it an ever-changing constant that was implanted among humans millenniums ago?

Whichever the answer is, the common advice still persists.

SUCK IT UP AND MOVE ON.

Last day of school

In a twinkle of an eye, the end of school has arrived. As many head home to flip through their notes, a sad soul is still flipping through research materials to complete his last 2 essays.

Shit man.

China Version of Lady Gaga Bad RomanceT

Freaking Epic.

Trust is broken

It was nothing short of shocking. To think that among all people, the person to break the secret would have to be you. I expected this to happen, but not you.

Trust is a very delicate yet powerful word. It either strengthens the relationship with the people whom you love and care for deeply, or it just breaks the bond between them just like how a sharp knife slice through the thich yet thin skin of a tomato. I can never understand why you do it in the first place.

No matter what the choices are, when you give  your word, you should uphold it all the way. As long as either party breaks it, the strength of the five letter word diminish rapidly in an instant, almost reaching a point of oblivion.

After many years of immersing myself in socio-political dynamics of events, this conclusion was not a surprising one.  All that is left is a bitter taste in me, but nothing can be done to salvage it. As a new saying on Tumblr goes, “ trust is like an eraser, the more someone attempts to destroy, it just shrinks and dies off by itself eventually”. I was a fool to have believed in the impossible.

Events like these reinforces the value in watching survivor.  People are there for you only when you are worthy for their usage. When you have no more interest value to the particular friend or person, you are just out of the picture.  It happens time and time again for the past 23 seasons and the 22 years of my life. It is a never changing fact. Of course, I am not generalizing every friend that I have on my list. There are still the elite few who are here just because they want to be here and value all the exchanges and friendship that has been built oer the years. However, I guess there is a little bit of this selfish streak in every one of us. Thus, being independent is the only key that allow you to survive in this harsh world.

This is indeed a sarcastic rebuttal to your actions. I wanted to give the good in humans a chance again. I want it to be renewed in my new faith and outlook to life. But, sadly, your actions have proved to me that my new faith is just a pack of wishful thinking.

 What now? You tell me. I am sick and tired of being nice to everyone. I see no reason as everyone chooses to take advantage of me in the end.

Bad Week

This week has a total disaster. I have fallen sick for the first time in the past 1 and the half year. Gotten the stomach vies somewhere somehow which i cannot remember. It must be due to the mixture of milk and my spicy prawn noodle that resulted in today's tragedy.

Caught up with the amazing race and cleared some readings. Time is running short. Sometimes, I wonder what is all these hustle and bustle leading us too? I have some friends who are so hard on competing have actually hurt the feelings fellow "comrades" around him or her. It is thus, a very sad fact of the education system. We are not pursuing knowledge, we are just pursuing the ends to it.

Is there a limit to progress? The answer is no. Progress is infinite and unquantifiable. Once it starts, it cannot be stopped. That is if you enter a 100% socialist state. Even so, there will still be progress as it needs to retain is political legitimacy over its people. Ok, I am heading into Political Science stuff. But anyway, my point is that, what I worry is how the future generation will be coping with the pressures of unrealistic expectations. Looking at the what the primary school kids are learning today, it really scares me. All that they have today are what I can only experience in my secondary school days. With all this rapid changes taking place, will there be a time when we need to inject growth hormones once our child are born?

Okies, time for Immanuel KANT.

Awakening

For all the effort I have put in, this is all I get.

Sometimes, I question the philosophy behind reaping what you sow. Why isn't it a direct formula?
I need to find the way fast. it is already the third semester and time is running out fast. Time in university is worth much more than anything else in the universe. Yes. No Joke. I would rather protest in the streets holding the sign "I WANT MORE TIME!" rather than " I AM THE 99% of the exploited population".
As a slow learner but a fast finisher, the whole system is stacked against me. I just feel so fed up at times when things don't seem to go the way I expect it to be. Not that it must turn out the way I want it to be, but perhaps, just preferably.

That day on the bus, it scared the shit out of me when I realize more than three quarters of the bus are filled with foreign students. What time was it you may ask. Well, I guess most of you would have known by now. 10pm. It was ten FREAKING o'clock. Can you believe it? I tried to put in that much already, and if others put it that much too, how will I be able to catch up with them?

Well, the only solution is to fix me to a caffeine injection system man. I am going to stay up late till the sun waves at me twice each day.

The bar has been set much much higher man. stressed.

I will not let this defeat me. I will be back stronger. If others can do it, so can I.

"It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity, it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair, we had everything before us, we had nothing before us, we were all going direct to heaven, we were all going direct the other way" - Charles Dickens

Old age Enlgish

I really hate it alot. Period.

And screw it. We didn't get the 3 points.

Colour Test

You guys should try this! http://www.colorquiz.com/quiz.php
It takes less than five minutes!


This is my results. Kind of accurate!

Color Test - Results

Your Existing Situation "Needs a peaceful and quiet environment. Desires an affectionate and faithful partner who will spoil him and treat him with importance. If he feels mistreated or a lack of attention, he may withdraw." Your Stress Sources "Delights in the finer things in life and things that appeal to the senses, but can be critical. Is careful and cautious and must believe he is not being manipulated or tricked. Keeps his emotions in check and is always analyzing his relationships in order to know exactly where he stands at all times. Demands complete honesty as a protection against his naturally trusting nature." Your Restrained Characteristics "Tries to participate and involve himself in things going on around him; however, avoids conflict and arguments to reduce stress and tension." "Emotionally withdrawn, feels forced to make compromises which makes emotional attachments difficult." "Although he is able to find contentment through sexual activity, he feels hopeless to change his problems and difficulties and continues to make the best of what he has." Your Desired Objective "Highly optimistic and outgoing personality. Loves to learn new and exciting things, and craves new interests. Looking for a well-rounded life full of success and new experiences. Does not allow himself to be overcome with negative thoughts or self-doubt. Takes life head on, with enthusiasm. " Your Actual Problem "Wishes he was more spontaneous and impulsive, but holds back because he needs things to be in order, rational, and clearly defined."

Rat race

We are all part of it. There is no escape.

The past weekend has been both bad and good. I spent my Saturday getting pissed with Singtel. On Sunday, I made my trip down to the Old Kallang Airport for the Nike Run and then celebrated Kian Wee's birthday at night. Not to forget, it was my maiden trip into Mandarin Oriental.

Loads to type and bitch about. But, first I have to play catch up in this rat race. A race that only cares about the immediate success and absolute value, but always forgetting the final destination that man will all arrive at one day. Death.

Hate it when people keep posting how man words they need to chalk up to hit the word limit of their essay on twitter. Seriously, what are u trying to show? Once or twice, it is ok. But it has been three sems in a row and every of your essay.

Run!

After so many weeks(roughly 3 weeks) of hectic work and the breaking up of the gym routine, this is the first time I am heading out for the Nike run.

It is one of the worst race ever in terms of preparation. I want this race to be over and done with. Just hope that everyone will move on from there afterwards.

Is it normal to have jitters meeting new people? I am being normal then.

Darkest Saturday ever

As the title has said it , this Saturday is one that I would want to forget.

Completed the tutorial questions for 1500 but did not internalize e lecture notes. Started on a week 5 Chinese politics reading and I'm
Only halfway through.

I thought I will be able to get my MacBook pro today but I didn't. Waited the entire morning for e Singtel peeps to come but they didn't.
After a 10 hours sleep, I still wasted 4 hours this afternoon taking a nap.

F this saturday man. E darkest one ever.

Why must it rain now? Can't it wait until 7. Grrr.

Terrible Saturday

This whole day just sucks to the max.

and to think I that I am ending it off with some read up on a church in the US that is anti-gay. Sometimes, I just wonder what the hell is wrong with this world man.

Did u know fucking insolent that "anything" meant to me?

One after another

Sitting in the enclosed room with the 4 walls acting as guardians around me, I am waiting for the Singtel technicians to install my fibre optic broadband. It has been 1 hour and there is still no sign of them. The key thing for the day is not my internet , but the macbook pro collection

The whole week has been a hectic one. 4 hours of sleep daily is really taking a toll on me both mentally and physically. I had to endure a splitting headache throughout the whole of yesterday. Overshot my targeted wake up timing and thus wasted a few hours. This is tough, but I will pull through it.

Sometimes, I ask, how long can i take this up and down ride. Test of my determination or patience?

Dare

Wil you dare to put your public life to scrutiny?

Dare

4 more hours

zomg. stressed max. last point. last point

Lonely night

I am in for a long lonely night....

Haiz seriously. feeling like shit. Need to turn this hate into strength

Facebook is becoming a tumblr

Simply amazing. Just a slight increase, say 1.5 times of the previous picture, alright, maybe not that much, lets say 1.25 times of the previous picture, the number of people spreading pictures have dramatically increased. Sharing of photos via facebook has become something like Susan Boyle joining UK's Got Talent. I guess the whole social network climate is that we are smiling more often, being inspired by those very touching stories about people who managed to come out of adversity, or maybe even get disgusted.

Well sadly, more people are getting disgusted. People are complaining about how they are tied of people reposting those pictures again and again, cluttering up their newsfeed with incessant reptition of pictures which do not mean much the second or time you view them.

I feel puzzled, extremely puzzled. You can't stop anyone from doing anything in the social network. It does not make sense when you keep repeating it over and over again. It totally makes you seem like a spoilt child. Just accept it and enjoy it. I really have a good laugh over these pictures. To me, it increases the recognition of some situations. The baby who clutched the doctor's finger. It maybe a bloody picture, but if it keeps coming back on the newsfeed, it can serves as a social announcement. Yeah?

Random musings. Hahas! Seeing Felicia Chin on Channel 8 makes me a depressed boy. It has been 2.5 sems already, and I have yet to see Ms Chin around the campus.

Procrastination

Hate myself. Hate myself for succumbing to the temptation of the "procrastinatress".
Now. I am stuck with this pile of deep shit.
How do I create a miracle out of nothing. This terrifying.

Nobody else but to blame myself. When will I learn the hard way?

The Amazing Race Season 19

Survivor Season 23 Episode 3

Essay

I am kind of hooked onto public policy readings, guess they somehow reflects my future ambition.
Been awhile since I blogged, not many interesting things happened over the past few days, maybe except the tree and the lamp post collapsed the other night would make it into the list.

Once this essay is done, I will be back playing catching. With who? With my hardcore PS peers. Sometimes, competition is good as it can serve as a huge motivation. Nobody wants to end up last, do they? Thus, this constant pressure of not falling behind others causes us to continue this vicious cycle of not giving ourselves a break.

The amazing race and survivor are back. Time for a break, not.

1 down 1 more to go

The feeling of completing an essay is indescribable, although the process is not something that one will look forward or enjoy.

Nevertheless, it should be a lesson for me that procrastination is a freaking bitch. The only way to control her is to start the preparation work early.

Blogger just introduced a new app. I downloaded it a few days ago and this is my firs trine using it. It seems very user-friendly on the first use, very intuitive and straight forward. I have yet to test the pictures or video function though. Shall leave that to next time.

F1 and Liverpool vs Wolves match, will be on later tonight. How am I going to resist such temptations. Got to clear my readings plus presentations first though. I can do it I can do it I can do it.....

I seriously need to go for lessons that teaches us how to write topic sentences.

Cyclical Transformation

Blogging is like a cyclical process. It used to be so popular that it once dominated the internet scene. Then, friendster came along before facebook declared itself boss. By the way, the hit counts to facebook has exceeded that of Pornography.

Next, twitter came along and your thoughts and expression are shorted to 140 characters. Maybe that is the reason why I cant seem to expand my thoughts and pointers quickly enough. Where do blog stand in all this changes? I guess we can say that it has become an avenue where we all come back to pen down our thoughts most intimate to us. A place where we feel that our thoughts can be openly shared without the scrutiny of your friends. There are some friends who are still reading it, but much lesser compared to 4-5 years ago.

The layout for blogger may have changed, but the deep cry for your thoughts to be penned down in this digital space is still undeniable. Well, that is for me. What about you?

Sick Feeling

Not physically, just mentally.

Woke up this morning to the same revolting feeling I have been experiencing the past week. It has been caused by the impending arrival of the assignment's deadline. I cannot help but develop a sense of disgust and rejection to it.

Can I defy the odds. Many a times, right before the journey has begun, we tell ourselves that we can overcome this time round. Well, who said it cost money to the things we say and think? The point is that, we will never know whether it is possible until the process starts. Like how it is now.

Fuckitty fuckitty fuck

oh my someone up there, please help me.

Fear

I talked about overcoming it this afternoon. Now, it is starting to creep into me. Going to fight this tough battle tonight.

Rock Bottom

Yes, the feeling sucks. I feel like I am stuck there right now.

1. Guys don't actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.
2. Guys love flirts.
3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.
4. When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're not thinking the way he is.
5. "Are you doing something?" or "Have you eaten already?" are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.
6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
7. When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad characteristics.
8. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl's attention.
10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.
11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.
12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can't. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!
13. Guys cry!!!!!!!!
14. Don't provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.
15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.
16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.
17. When you touch a guy's heart, there's no turning back.
18. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...never mind!" would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.
19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.
20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
21. When a guy makes a prolonged "umm" or makes any excuses when you're asking him to do you a favor, he's actually saying that he doesn't like you and he can't lay down the card for you.
22. When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow."
23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.
24. Guys hate gays!
25. Guys love their moms.
26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.
27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't mean that the guy likes her.
28. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.
29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.
30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.
31. Like Eve, girls are guys EUR™ weaknesses.
32. Guys are very open about themselves.
33. It's good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don't let him wait that long.
34. No guy is bad when he is courting.
35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.
36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they're not that much pretty.
37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.
39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.
41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.
42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.
43. Guys virtually brag about anything.
44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.
45. Guys think too much.
46. Guys' fantasies are unlimited.
47. Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does!
48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!
49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.
50. It's not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they've been together for 3 years or more.
51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.
52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be matured and grow up.
53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.
54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.
55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.
56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he's sweating. You'll probably see that he is nervous.
57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.
58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."
59. Guys don't really have final decisions.
60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.
61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.
62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.
63. Guys believe that there's no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.
64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.
65. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.
66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.
67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.
68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.
69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!
70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
71. A guy's friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.
72. Don't be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.
73. Don't be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you'll be surprised.
74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.
75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.
76. Guys don't comprehend the statement "Get lost" too well.
77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.
78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.
79. Guys don't care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.
80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they'll realize they're wrong.
81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He's just too stubborn to deal with it.
82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.
83. Guys' weakest point is at the knee.
84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.
85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.
86. When a guy looks at you, either he's amazed of you or he's criticizing you.
87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.
88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.
89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you're with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.
90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!
92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.
93. When a guy says he can't sleep if he doesn't hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.
94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.
95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.
96. Girls are allowed to touch boys' things. Not their hair!
97. If a guy says you're beautiful, that guy likes you.
98. Guys hate girls who overreact.
99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships

Survivor Season 23 Episode 2

Future

Uncertain as it may seem, we all have to be prepared for it. Many at times, after each failure, people tend to become fearful of trying again. A sign of weakness? No. I guess it is something that every normal human being faces. There come a time when you have to pull yourself up without help from any other people. It is the time when willpower is all that it matters. But are we ready for it? Helpless. Standing here watching you lose everything just pains me. Just hope that you can be strong and pull yourself out of this misery. If only essay writing is like blogging,doing graffiti with punctuation, life would be so much simpler and happy. I only have one more ay left, and my word count is simply pathetic. I have done 2 drafts and I do not see the end result of it. The weather is not helping either. IN such a conducive weather, sleep should take priority.

Comment from anonymous reader!

Thanks to this stranger who commented on my last post. May u be blessed in whatever you do =) "These kinda things happen frequently and it's more likely due to the incongruence of how the other party perceives the importance of the friendships. And I do see where you come from, 'cos I'm one that invests a lot of emotions and effort into maintaining friendships as well. It's like my source of strength that keeps me going. I guess we are similar in this way! Don't feel that you are alone in this! (: Anyway, university life will get more and more hectic as more and more responsibilities pile on you. I regretted losing some friends due to my inattentiveness for the past few years (not everyone is interested in a simple phone call. LOL). Just remember, never stray away from this personal value of yours. I believe it will be valuable at some point of our lives. Don't feel bad for being different. Be proud and stay awesome! Push on, young one!" Suddenly, the motivation to blog shot up by tenfolds.

Lost

Feeling kind of lost. My dad Just told me that an engineering education or something that deal with Mathematics would be better. Just when I need the right inspiration, he has to shoot me down at this time. Not that I am blaming him or what, but it is not the right time at all. I came into this semester feeling very determined to get something out of it. Weighing among lifesaving, community service club, giving tuition and studies, I decided to choose the last 2. It is kind of hard to let go of something that you have trained so hard for over the past one year, and for CSC, the feeling of going back on one's promise is just sickening. With so many work piling up, this semester is slowly becoming my most dreaded nightmare. This week can be said to be the March and September holidays for NUS students. Sadly, I am not enjoying it at all. Supposed to clubbing tonight but tied down by work. Sometimes, I really wonder what am I trying so hard for? In the end, success depends on how you adapt to the changing world. Degree is just a back up, adaptability and capability are the 2 qualities that matters the most.

Back

This is the countless of times that I have said, " It's been a long time since I am back at this blog..." It is really hard to maintain this blog if you do not have the discipline to do so. Discipline is the key. At this stage of our lives, where most of us have different commitments to adhere too. many of us start to drift off from one another. Some respond to you enthusiastically, but some, just totally ignore you. Some ask you out, but want to assume things that are not true to begin with. It struck me to know when you book someone 5 months in advance, the person can still go back on his promise. I don't deny that things may crop up the last minute, but when you know that the person don't put in the effort to place this appointment in the first place, you really know where you stand in this person's heart. No matter how much excuses he can come up with, it just saddens me to know that early booking is deemed redundant. Well, a single backing out of the appointment is alright, it may not matter much. However, right now, 2 more people are backing out. What is this? The numbers are not really the matter here, the focus here is more of the psychological impact it creates in the future meet ups. The actions right now will create the ripple effect, I am kind of PMS-ing now. Just some inner frustration in me. Oh well. And screw it. I got to pay $17.60 this morning. Why? Cause I woke up late for lecture. 9.41am for a 10am lecture. Best of all? I live in Bedok.

Double Standards

女人出街手牵手：正常
男人出街手牵手：gay

女人爱哭：正常
男人爱哭：没种

女人一起喝一杯水：没什么大不了
男人一起喝一杯水：恶心

女人打架：sibei 厉害
男人打架：社会之害

女人爱撒娇：可爱
男人爱撒娇：死阿瓜

女人抱在一起：感情很好
男人抱在一起：心理变态

女人打男人：男人该打
男人打女人：男人该打

男人强奸女人：坐牢
女人强奸男人：没人相信

女人穿男装：好酷
男人穿女装：好恶

女人扮可爱：好想亲一下
男人扮可爱：好想巴一下

Stop Procrastinating!

I have got to shut down facebook and twitter. It just suck the minutes and seconds from my life.

Loads to plan and I have not done it yet. Shame. No more of this stupid practice anymore.

The Men Rules

These are our rules! Please note ... these are all numbered "1 " ON PURPOSE!

1. Men are NOT mind readers. (FIRST & FOREMOST RULE)

1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down. We need it up, you need it down. You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.

1. Sunday sports, It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be.

1.. Crying is blackmail.

1. Ask for what you want.
Let us be clear on this one:
Subtle hints do not work!
Strong hints do not work!
Obvious hints do not work!
Just say it!

1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.

1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become Null and void after 7 Days.

1. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us.

1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one

1. You can either ask us to do something Or tell us how you want it done. Not both. If you already know best how to do it , just do it yourself.

1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials..

1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.

1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings. Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.

1. If it itches, it will be scratched. We do that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," We will act like nothing's wrong. We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle..

1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, Expect an answer you don't want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine... Really .

1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as Football or Cricket OR RUGBY.

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!

Rain

The rain can flood the nation.

Well, yeah, somehow it affected the consumer economy. Orchard Road is once again the hardest hit area from this morning freak rain. ( oh really? )

Feeling kind of lost about what to do during this holiday. I am going to do an events job that will make me exert the guts out. I am going to crash ARTS camp. I have volunteered to be a CSC Camp Councillor. Hopefully, by July, I can be a part time Lifeguard after I have complete the Sentosa Lifeguard duty in June.

Am I losing the touch of writing? This is really disturbing. I must really put in the discipline and determination to rediscover the touch.

Leona Lewis - Stop Crying Your Heart Out

Hold up, hold on
Don't be scared,
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile shine on
Don't be scared,
Your destiny may keep you warm

'Cause all of the stars have faded away
Just try not to worry,
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Get up
(Get Up)
Come On
(Come On)
Why you scared?
(I'm not scared)
You'll never change what's been and gone

'Cause all of the stars have faded away
Just try not to worry,
You'll see them some day
Take what you need,
And be on your way,
http://www.elyricsworld.com/stop_crying_your_heart_out_lyrics_leona_lewis.html
And stop crying your heart out.

'Cause all of the stars have faded away
Just try not to worry,
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

'Cause all of the stars have faded away
Just try not to worry,
You'll see us some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

The World is So Small

Or is it just Singapore.

Memories are just flooding back into my soul.

Going to work at this Carrefour events job next week at the Expo. This is the first time I am going to work like Bangla/Chinese foreign labourer. Move heavy stuff, do some hard selling, setting up of shelves. Phew. Hopefully, it will be a good workout for my body.

This blog skin got to go.

Anyway, my previous post has no reflection of my current relationship status. It is just some tweet that I found it very meaningful.

The past week has been meetup sessions with Mel and the Gay family.
Sometimes, we tend to think that the other party may not be free to meet up. This results in both parties not wanting to contact each other. Well, assumption is not going to create any conclusion. A simple message is all it takes to solve the unsolved question.

After yesterday's dinner, I must say that BBQ buffet is not the thing for me. Seoul Garden at Marina Square is kind of awful. Their flooring is not done properly. The layout of their food selection was kind of misplaced. 26 bucks was not well spent at all.

Outing with the victorians. Kind of sad that this month's prata breakfast has to coincide with the champions league finals. This, unfortunately, resulted in many of us not able to wake up for the free prata. LOL. The match was totally one sided man. No teams in the world can match up to them. Not even the supposedly best team from England. I use the word "supposedly" because MANC has not overtake Liverpool in terms of European Cup titles won. Hence, we shall call MANC the best DOMESTIC team in England. A big thanks to Mascherano for dedicating the UCL win to Liverpool, in your face Neville.



POTC4 was good. The storyline was an adaptation from the novel, A Stranger Tides. It was kind of predictable. The crazy antics of Jack Sparrow makes me think of someone. Hmm... But anyway, the part where he had to choose to save either Black Beard or Angelica, it was so obvious that he would be saving the damsel. A good learning point for everyone, to know your enemy well so as to know the best method to counter them.

That's all I guess.

no like before sharing? and talk so much. hmm

Three A's to keep your girl: affection adoration and attention. Three C's to keep a relationship communication commitment and care

Pwned

I think that self-interest first philosophy should be implemented now. damn.

Too Late

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothin new
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

Final Blow

U going to get it from me. U just wait.

Flipping

I should have flipped to the dark side a few years back, together with you. By being myself, it was just a detrimental move that lead to such headache now.

This lack of sleep is not doing me any good. But I am just going to push through. I made the first step and I shall end it with my last.

Most Loyal Reader Award

Goes to Amos Tan. Since I started this, you have been one loyal reader. Thank you very much =)

NS gonna end soon. no worries!

Choice

I have made it, n thus, i will move on with it. Whatever the outcome is, it is up to you to decide. I have been trying to show how much you mean to me, but if my actions still do not move you. I really have nothing else to say.

Thank You

ML. Another new perspective to that make me sit up and listen. Thanks alot! Although you often catch me at the wrong times, but I will still treasure what you have told me tonight. =)

Come to think of it, this is the first time I went down to 85 but bought no food.

True People

In times like these, you really know who really stand by you. Those who bother to call you, type out long messages to comfort you, sit by the bed to relate their past experiences to you.

I just have to tell myself to live life for myself and not for others anymore. I have seen a clearer picture and the fact that people are selfish. At the end of the day, you are just a pawn in your game. They won't tell you their moves up till the final one. Even when you are willing to lose a bit of your pride to regain that tiny amount of salvation from them, they won't even budge a bit.

A huge lesson this semester. I have woken up. It is time for me to stand up, be myself and work for my own future. Not others.

A Big Thanks to my Sister and Melvin.

Should I or should I not?

Petition

In the wake of the elections, petitions have been springing up like wild mushrooms in the internet. My newsfeed is flooded with friends asking me to join this petition to bring BG(NS) George Yeo back, get him to replace Tin Pei Ling in Marine Parade, others in the pro-opp camp wants a by-election to be held in Potong Pasir, others demand another recount as they believe the margin was too small.

I have been ignoring all these requests, except for the one that is campaigning for BG(NS) George Yeo to be running for presidency. My reasons are very simple. The acts of creating petitions and the participation in them, reflects badly in Singapore's image as a democratic country. These petitions belittle our electoral process and will impede the development of democracy in Singapore.

Firstly, I believe in the fair and open elections in Singapore. Some people had told me not to be naive in my thinking, others have said the fear is still there. Well, I am utterly disappointed to hear all these. If indeed those allegations were true, then I would like to ask, why are these people still voting for the incumbent? Do you still believe in its legitimacy to run this country? If there is a chance that the incumbent party becomes inefficient or corrupt, will they still vote for them out of fear? Most importantly, a fair and free elections is the fundamental feature of a democracy. To deny is citizens of that constitutional right, will mean that the state has failed in upholding the founding belief this nation was built on.

There are sources online to read up on it. http://wp.sg/your-vote-is-secret Some may say that this is a biased source, since this is from the opposition website. But hey, these are all verified by all the opposition representatives when they went to incinerate the votes. Another point to consider that the vote is a secret, is to look at the residents of Hougang and Potong Pasir. I do not see all of them disappearing one by one each day for the past 20 years and 27 years respectively.

So, with these petitions rallying for a by-election at Potong Pasir, I personally feel that Singaporeans are just undermining the whole electoral system. It is fair and open system. Both the PAP and SPP candidate were at the counting centre to witness the vote counting process, thus I believe no Singaporean should question the final result. All I can say to those 200+ people who voided their vote, it is your fault for not taking a stand.

Secondly, this petition reflects the maturity level of the society. This elections, without any doubt, has increased the political awareness of many Singaporeans. The older ones have finally feel empowered with the chance to vote and the first time voters have realized the importance of their choice. With the increase of blog posts, facebook notes and the debates on online forum, there is not a single suspicion that Singaporeans have rise up to challenge the label of being "politically apathetic".
However, being involved and politically active is different from being a mature one. The petitions have clearly shown the society's lack of maturity. The results have been tallied, and the choices of the people who have voted for the PAP is clear. Therefore, in order for the society to progress, the respect for every individual's wishes must be recognized.

Exams Are Over.

So is the elections. Now what?

All I want is for the alternative side to be told to everyone. Straits Times is simply not enough to know what your alternative choice has to offer.

If only exams is not around the corner, I would have dedicated all my time in revamping my blog for the cause of this GE.

kk back to revision . sianz

Is Singapore the place I want to call home?

As General Elections comes in, I wonder if I do have a place in this nation anymore?
Things suddenly look bleak. What will our future be, when all you see now is just economic growth and focus on productivity?

I actually miss those days when I just take part in those primary school races during National Day, singing the songs, watching the parade. Now? All, I experience is just school. Squeeze in the public transport, reading stupid posts by Singaporeans on STOMP, hearing primary school kids using vulgarities on the buses like it is their first language.

What is Singapore turning to? I want to be that change, but will they allow me to? When all they believe are the foreign talents, or allowing the foreign students to make the playing unfair? Somehow, I am kind of pissed when the playing field is unfair. They manipulated it in the political, housing, education and transport domains.

They say they have not lost touch. I am sorry, you have. They say there is no climate of fear. Sorry, there is.

Being pragmatic is nothing wrong, being pragmatic in the long run is another. We have to do something Singapore, we have to make our concerns be significant to make them wobble in their knees. Time for a Change. Yes, we can. No, to total dominance.

Fairness

All I am asking for is fairness. Just return what rightfully belongs to me.
In life, things can seem so good, but the moment the second hand ticks, things just go into a free fall.

"I am not entitled to take anything from you..."

So what now, no reply, no nothing, just turn around in the darkness, getting your own happiness and neglecting the other one.

"Virtual friend". Yup, why not virtual friend. Don't you have the need to be accountable to anyone who is concerned for you? Do you leave just like that?

Tried to break love to a science
In an act of pure defiance
I broke her heart
As I pulled apart her theory
As I watched her growing weary
I pulled her apart

Having heavy conversations
About the furthest constellations of our souls
We're just trying to find some meaning
In the things that we believe in
But we got some ways to go
Of all of the things that she's ever said
She goes and says something that just knocks me dead

You won't find faith or hope down a telescope
You won't find heart and soul in the stars
You can break everything down to the chemicals
But you can't explain a love like ours

ooohhhh
It's the way we feel, yeah this is real
ooohhhh
It's the way we feel, yeah this is real

I tried pushing evolution
As the obvious conclusion of the start
But it was for my own amusement
Saying love was an illusion of a hopeless heart
Of all of the things that she's ever said
She goes and says something that just knocks me dead

You won't find faith or hope down a telescope
You won't find heart and soul in the stars
You can break everything down to chemicals
But you can't explain a love like ours

ooohhhh
It's the way we feel, yeah this is real
ooohhhh
It's the way we feel, yeah this is real

Of all of the things that she's ever said
She goes and says something that just knocks me dead

You won't find faith or hope down a telescope
You won't find heart and soul in the stars
You can break everything down to chemicals
But you can't explain a love like ours

ooohhhh
It's the way we feel, yeah this is real
ooohhhh
It's the way we feel, yeah this is real

I need my writing genes back. come back come back!

=D

I opened my eyes last night and saw you in the low light
Walking down by the bay, on the shore, staring up at the planes that aren’t there anymore
I was feeling the night grow old and you were looking so cold
Like an introvert, I drew my over shirt
Around my arms and began to shiver violently before
You happened to look and see the tunnels all around me
Running into the dark underground
All the subways around create a great sound
To my motion fatigue: farewell
With your ear to a seashell
You can hear the waves in underwater caves
As if you actually were inside a saltwater room
Time together is just never quite enough
When you and I are alone, I’ve never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
We need time, only time
When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time, all the time
Can you believe that the crew has gone and wouldn’t let me sign on?
All my islands have sunk in the deep, so I can hardly relax or even oversleep
I feel as if I were home some nights when we count all the ship lights
I guess I’ll never know why sparrows love the snow
We’ll turn off all of the lights and set this ballroom aglow
So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time
Time together is just never quite enough
When you and I are alone, I’ve never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
We need time, only time
When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time, all the time
Time together is just never quite enough
When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time

3 essays

6th April
8th April
18th April

Get your essay working HZ.

Whirlwind week. Never did I expect it to happen. Life is full of surprises.

Feeling kind of " Li Bu Cong Xin" . Why Why? For my mid terms, I can say that I did well. English Above average, and IR just with the average. Wanna make this sem a good one. I got to push on!

Like I said, this world still focuses on grades. Look at the recent candidates introduced by all the different parties. With today's advent of social network, it is scary to see the level of scrutiny on these new candidates. Whether they were married, or if they bought Kate Spade bag, and even if their name is a joke, all these were dug out within 24 hours.

Insane? Yes absolutely. Gone were the days where privacy is really private. However, we stop to pause again, who let this privacy erode from us? When we trace back, it is still ourselves. Yup, at this moment while I type this, I know this will be seen through the net. But there is an underlying purpose for it. Anyone who wants to run as a politician, remember to eradicate all traces of your past on the net, for you do not want something unforeseeable to happen to you. Like a warning to myself =D

Anyway, I am off. Hmm, changes? A new direction. It will come =)

Why don't facebool create a timeline that writes down every single activity you have done on facebook and create like a blog post? Twitter should consider that too.
Just some random entrepreneurship thoughts running through my mind.Haha

Reflection

It is good to have someone who is so frank with you, to point out your flaws and your good points. Someone who is there to hear your problems, giving solutions instead of just listening to them.

Am really thankful to have these friends.=) Wanted to come up with a long post dedicated to everyone who came to my party, but then again, procrastination sets in.
Well, not really though, procrastination has become something of the past of me. Whether it comes back to haunt me, I guess time will tell.

"We learn history so as not let it repeat itself" Why then do certain stuff keep occuring again? Once you allow irrationality to take over your minds, that is the time when rationality bades farewell to you. I am disappointed with myself if things turn out to be that screwed up. Haiz.

Anyway, this is the time of the semester again when deadlines come together hand in hand to terrorise. Oh well, time to call the allies in.

Tada.

Japan Disaster

Is there anyone out there who can forget the Pearl Harbour incident in Decemner 7 , 1941? The sneaky attacks that has been repeated throughout our history books, tested in O levels history, again in A level history. The steamy scene where Kate Beckinsale and Ben Affleck showed their affections in the hangar... No one will be able to forget all this. So why then, does it gives the right for people to criticise those who blame Karma for the natural disaster at Japan?

"It is immoral, you imbeciles! Why must you hit Japan at their lowest point by bringing up Karma? We should move on!"
Why do u all become so defensive of Japan? Is it because they brought you pokemon, your favourite PSP , Sony Playstation, and that is why you all feel more attached to them?

I am one who believe in retribution. Do to others what you want others to do to you. Sometimes, god has/have a funny way of punishing us. Maybe , this served as a huge lesson to everyone. Time to sit up, take responsibility, change our mindsets, do good for humanity. History teaches us to learn from past mistakes and move on. The thing is, how many of us can truly say we have moved on? How can we, as normal beings, deny someone of the right to be remembered of their sad past that drives their hatred or anger today?

Remember this. What I believe does not means I stand for it. I respect their viewpoint. If you all who keep exclaiming those people should just die because they are blaming it on karma, then think again. Could you ever understand their pain and losses, when their loved ones were sneaked up by the Japs, died under the merciless attacks without even having a chance to say goodbye. Think again....

What I hope the world will learn from the past decade is simply to be more responsible for our future generations. A little sacrifice will come a long way for the young ones. The thing that worries me most is the nuclear meltdown that may occur anytime. If it do happens, my heart goes all out to Japan. They will have to suffer a second nuclear scar in the nation's history. Imagine a much part of their north east will be non-habitual. Furthermore, Korea Peninsula will be affected with those minute radioactive particles floating in the air.

Nuclear energy is indeed a good choice to replace fuel-reliant energy. However, when a disaster strikes, it just multiplies the enormity of the catastrophic end result. I can never imagine if Indonesia or Malaysia does build one. Indonesia is never reliable to tap on such high-end technology. Look at the geographical location of Indonesia, is it even conceivable for them build a nuke plant? Once the world shake, and the whole SEA will be wiped out.

Oh well, that sums up what I have to say for the whole issue. Please, no meltdown.

Japan Disaster

People are now arguing whether it is a fair statement to say that Japan deserve this earthquake. Yes, it is true, no countries or should I say any human being should have their right to live be taken away without their permission. However, the key player that determines one's fate is natural disaster.

As a normal being, no one is able to dictate when should a natural disaster occur. So then, this leads to the question of who, or which superior being other than humans, create this natural events. The religious one will say god, while mathematicians will base it on probabilities and stats. Is it karma then that caused Japan to face their worst natural disaster? I will not deny this probability. Think about what they did to the many innocent Chinese people in World War 2, killing these defenceless civilians without battling an eyelid.

I won't disagree with this argument, but I can't stand for it, as something that is natural is beyond human control, what more to decide whose judgement is right.

Update more later on.

Nice Song worth sharing. hopefully it doesn't happen.

Project sucks

Yes it really do sucks when the people u work with can be so anal at times.

Waiting, quietly waiting.

Angst

Angst to let it out. Hmm, Why comment when you openly support another party? Nothing is wrong in supporting another party, but neither am I wrong to voice out my opinion on national policies and the fact of what is happening right now. Thanks for the cynical comment.

Anyway, want to say about another issue, but totally slipped off my mind.SSB 2216 sucking my soul for the night.

Hmm

This song still tops my charts. Sums up what I have been going through. Past and present

Y?

Y didn't I had to delay it. Y? Hopefully I will not be regretting it.

Procrastination should be eradicated.

Time to sleep!

Or should I wait out for another Champions League match? Hmmmm

Time to sleep!

Or should I wait out for another Champions League match? Hmmmm

Chance

What is the chance of asking a girl out on a date during Valentine's Day, only for her to confess to you that she is a lesbian?

What is the chance of you striking Toto? Not the usual one. The UNusual one, the Hongbao draw.

Well, very slim right? But ta-da, I just have 2 friends who had such luck. Good and Bad .

Survivor is back!

With Rusell and Boston Rob! I so forgot to mention it man! There is a huge twist in this 22nd season, and it involves survivors who got voted off to have a chance to return to the game. But, to gain an entry back into the game, they will have to duel with the subsequent survivors who are going to be voted off. Super interesting. I am damn ups for this show manz!

OK, they played for a draw. FML. 2 hours of sleep gone, just to see them secure a big fat 0 shots on target.

Lost

Seriously, I don't konw what is Liverpool. They suddenly look so different from the team that chalked up 4 straight wins. Where is the spirit lads? The referees kind of sucks too, booking Ngog when it is that captain of Sparta Prague who was clearing him back! His arms were all over his chest man!

Ok back to the match. Forgot what I wanted to blog man...

Transport via Bus

It is gonna strike 3 soon and there is school tmr. Shiatz. Just gonna type something and then come back to input more tmr.

Random thoughts in my mind. Why aren't there biographies of other ministers except our SM? Don't there have much ideas to be shared to this little nation or the world?

When I ask you something, don't just give me answer from the 1st result from the google search engine. It is damn ridiculous. I asked because I appreciate your talent, hopefully I can get something out of it. Oh well.

Yup, so I now know roughly how Mediacorp looks like now finally. The questions asked were kind of hard. I am not sure if I can type it out here, but it is kind of a surprise to me. I have to admit I came late and luckily, still given a chance to take the exam. The thing is, I missed the freaking bus stop. I had my reservations of trusting the "gothere.sg" app, but after the experience on Saturday, do not doubt technology. Hopefully, I get the call on Friday.

Yeah, Liverpool drew. Sad, and now we are like 8 points behind Tottenham. This may even increase to 11 if Spurs do win their game-in-hand. I just can't stomach the fact that we had to do so badly in the first half of the season. On hindsight, we may even been challenging Man Uni for the top honours, and not having to rant like a madman and curse the loss of Torres. Oh well. 10 losses really looks very shitty to me. It is freaking double digit!!!

Miracles do happen. We did it at Istanbul and then again in the FA cup against West Ham. May we do a Houdini act again this season.

Love King Kenny, Love Liverpool. You'll never walk alone!

Intense

Intense

That sums up the whole of IR tutorial yesterday. The tutorial was held in a style similar to what we see in a debate. Advantages of conducting it in a debate format is that ideas and viewpoints can be openly discussed and it will train your mind into thinking further and faster. However, the flip side of this is that, the whole tutorial can just revolve around a few people and basically dominating the entire lesson. It is even worse when you encounter people who nitpicks on the topic, not that they are wrong though, but it really irks you out at times.

My 3 days week can only happen on the even weeks >_<. Training intensity increased dramatically on wednesday night. 400m 200m 200m 100m 100m. 400m and 3 laps of towing with aid. Really pushing my body to the limits. I am very impressed with those people staying in hall, who have activites, be it school or hall, to occupy them throughout the night. When the heck do these people have time to study? How do they even manage to maintain a CAP of 5.0? Ok maybe not that great then. What about a 4.5? Time management is the key to the success of these adrenalin-crazed students. Then can I ask if they are taking somekind of wonder drug or what? Some of them are not only pure athletes. They do hold positions in the executive comittee, and that takes up even more time, especially when major events are coming up.

Oh well. Just in different leagues.

Anyway realised a new bus route again. Take BTC from the bustop at Central Forum. 10 mins later, Alight at Durnearn bustop. Board 151/153/154. 8-10mins later, alight at Trellis Towers. Board 5. 7 mins later. Either choose to alight and cross the overheard bridge to board buses to Bedok, or board 45.

a) Take buses to Bedok. 15 mins to reach the interchange

b) Take bus 45 , take 5 mins to reach busstop at Blk 521 Bedok North Road. Board 17, 10 mins to reach home. Total time: 40mins. ( Record)

c) Continue to take 5 and alight outside Changi General Hospital. Take around 20 mins and Change 17. 5 mins to reach home. ( 53 mins)

This is for all those who are seeking to get the fastest route from NUS to Bedok and Simei area.

All this timing does not include waiting time for the buses. If added into consideration, give it +15-20mins.

Buses that are difficult to wait will be: BTC- frequency is not high.

5- Slow during peak hours

Homecoming tonight! Damn proud of myself. 1 week completed 6 readings. Time to start on essays.

Change of Fortune

What a turn of event. Who else but Liverpool =D?

I think it is time for me to set up 2 more blogs. One which focuses entirely on my rants of Liverpool and the other one for me to really dive deep into world and social issues. Writing is the same as the study of science and mathematics, more practice is needed to develop the flair and aptitude.

Lifesaving. Hmm. Pushing myself real hard. Throughout my academic life, it is the first time I am in a sports club. Well, I want to put my horrible memory of the failed table tennis trial back in VS away. Ha. Then again, I am actually paying money for this Bronze Medallion course. My aim is just get a cert and prove to myself that I can hit 35 seconds for 50m Freestyle. Sadly, I am still far from the target. Yesterday, I only managed a 43 seconds. Just got to push on. 8 seconds! My oh my!

Linguistics is kind of weird. Have you all learnt a language in such a scientific manner? I am quite surprise when I look through the course syllabus. It is like sitting through kindergarten all over again. Hopefully, I can get through this in one piece man.

I will be going to Caldecott Broadcast Centre this Saturday =D. LOL

Overflowing of emotions

The title says it all.

Getting on my Nerves

Liverpool, my oh my. Up to now, I think I have not blogged something postive about my favourite club.

I am very puzzled as to why maxi and spearing is in today's lineup. Put Aurelio as left back, switch Glen Johnson to right winger, put babel in on the left of midfield and lastly, throw in Joe Cole behind Torres.

I just don't understand why and how today's result is it is as it happened. Skrtel at fauly? Well, probably. Where is the cover then? Why aren't they taking chances there? Maxi seems to be going on a solo mission. With no one marking Torres, Maxi for goodness sake, pass it to him.

This can't go on too long man. 10 Losses. How do we even get into the top 6? It is like making the entire team climb Mount Everest without any prior training. Sell Poulsen, Jovanovic, Konchesky and Kuyt. Bring in an experience striker or young one( Lukaku?), another quality CM and then cure the left back problem. The entire midfield is aging, and the young ones are not up to scratch. I forgot to add another player to the shopping list, centre backs.

I am in favour with what the new owners think. Yes, we need to train the young. But, the short term problem still needs to be solved! I can't imagine we get sucked into a relegation battle, and that is it. We can forget about training the young. Those crazy salary that the team is drawing will have to be the burden the owners have to carry it. I shudder at those thoughts that may shatter to bring down the glorious history that is emobodied by this club....

Release of O level Results!

Nothing much to complain about the first week. 3 day work week. What more to ask for? Hopefully, tutorial bidding will turn up what I have wished for.

Readings and more readings. This , I am not complaining about. Somehow, it feels kind of funny and yet happy at the same time. All those thoughts I had since I was in Secondary school is all surfacing now in these readings. It makes me somehow feel as if I am connected to them in a certain level. I am delighted to have "met" them right now, but kind of worrying if it is kind of too late. No matter how much people are saying that University is an educational institution that you can excel in what you are really interested in, there are deeper underlying traps that one has to be careful of. Yes, you can deepen your interest in a particular subject, but to excel, it is a whole new ball game. The playing field has raised up to the top 18% of the cohort, or so the census says,.( I was merely just copied the findings that 18% of Singaporeans are holding a degree. I am wrong here... but , nvm), in addition to the never ending stream of foreign students seeking for a globally recognized degree, the education landscape in Singapore has evolved.

The recent O levels has once again proved that the local kids are facing immense pressure. I was scouring through STOMP( the best gossip website by a local press) , and of course, it is not surprising to see Singaporeans complaining how our local boys and girls are losing out again. A typical Singaporean response to such controversial issue. Complain, and not constructive solution. So what is my purpose of mentioning this issue. I'm not complaining about the increasing trend of foreign students dominating the local examinations, I will just highlight 2 issues that Singaporeans are not looking deeper into.

First, many of our top students are now in the through train programmes. To say that our local kids are not up to the mark , is really somewhat unfair. I say , wait for the A-level results, then make another judgement again. The top 15% are still our nation's best are probably mugging real hard for the A levels, while the remaining 85% of their cohort has to take the blame for underperforming. In a nutshell, the comparison is just short of the word, fair.

Secndly, the batch of students who took the O level last year had to compete with the foreign students who had already, back in their home ground, completed the syllabus for Mathematics, Science and Mother Tongue. What is left for them to "conquer" is English and Humanities. I have a gut feeling that they had already completed much of humanities, and what is left is Social Studies.In comparison, we can definitely see that the local students are already on the disadvantaged end as they have to juggle more subjects in the same amount of time, as compared to their foreign peers whom only need to clear fewer subjects. Hence, it is unfair to put the blame on the kids, and rather, we should shift our attention to who allowed such culpable competition to exist in the first place?

In this age where the wave of globalisation, it is hard for Singapore, a small country so vulnerable to the vagaries of external events to resist it. It is time for the people to accept the fact that we need to accept people not from our mother land. We recieve them in open arms, making sure they are the right ones that can contribute to our economy. While both parties continue to exploit each other for mutual benefits, Singaporeans have to always think ahead, making sure that what we can tap is more than what they can extract from us.

A dog-eat-dog world, but a cruel fact of life.

Time to sleep. More readings to clear. And more blogging to continue =D

So it all begins again

Yup, School is back for more action once again.

Most of us started off with a hole in the pocket. The textbooks for all the modules cost so much. Scary! Everything is rising, except wages, our CAP, my weight, my height , my muscle growth...

But anyway, first week is up for me already. The bidding for tutorial starts tmr and may my hope of a 3 day week be fulfilled. 4 days or rest versus 3 days of school. Cool!

Dinner time for me. Now