Friday, 30 September 2011

4 more hours

zomg. stressed max. last point. last point

Lonely night

I am in for a long lonely night....

Thursday, 29 September 2011

Haiz seriously. feeling like shit. Need to turn this hate into strength

Facebook is becoming a tumblr

Simply amazing. Just a slight increase, say 1.5 times of the previous picture, alright, maybe not that much, lets say 1.25 times of the previous picture, the number of people spreading pictures have dramatically increased. Sharing of photos via facebook has become something like Susan Boyle joining UK's Got Talent. I guess the whole social network climate is that we are smiling more often, being inspired by those very touching stories about people who managed to come out of adversity, or maybe even get disgusted.

Well sadly, more people are getting disgusted. People are complaining about how they are tied of people reposting those pictures again and again, cluttering up their newsfeed with incessant reptition of pictures which do not mean much the second or time you view them.

I feel puzzled, extremely puzzled. You can't stop anyone from doing anything in the social network. It does not make sense when you keep repeating it over and over again. It totally makes you seem like a spoilt child. Just accept it and enjoy it. I really have a good laugh over these pictures. To me, it increases the recognition of some situations. The baby who clutched the doctor's finger. It maybe a bloody picture, but if it keeps coming back on the newsfeed, it can serves as a social announcement. Yeah?

Random musings. Hahas! Seeing Felicia Chin on Channel 8 makes me a depressed boy. It has been 2.5 sems already, and I have yet to see Ms Chin around the campus.

Procrastination

Hate myself. Hate myself for succumbing to the temptation of the "procrastinatress".
Now. I am stuck with this pile of deep shit.
How do I create a miracle out of nothing. This terrifying.

Nobody else but to blame myself. When will I learn the hard way?

The Amazing Race Season 19

Survivor Season 23 Episode 3

Essay

I am kind of hooked onto public policy readings, guess they somehow reflects my future ambition.
Been awhile since I blogged, not many interesting things happened over the past few days, maybe except the tree and the lamp post collapsed the other night would make it into the list.

Once this essay is done, I will be back playing catching. With who? With my hardcore PS peers. Sometimes, competition is good as it can serve as a huge motivation. Nobody wants to end up last, do they? Thus, this constant pressure of not falling behind others causes us to continue this vicious cycle of not giving ourselves a break.

The amazing race and survivor are back. Time for a break, not.

Saturday, 24 September 2011

1 down 1 more to go

The feeling of completing an essay is indescribable, although the process is not something that one will look forward or enjoy.

Nevertheless, it should be a lesson for me that procrastination is a freaking bitch. The only way to control her is to start the preparation work early.

Blogger just introduced a new app. I downloaded it a few days ago and this is my firs trine using it. It seems very user-friendly on the first use, very intuitive and straight forward. I have yet to test the pictures or video function though. Shall leave that to next time.

F1 and Liverpool vs Wolves match, will be on later tonight. How am I going to resist such temptations. Got to clear my readings plus presentations first though. I can do it I can do it I can do it.....

Friday, 23 September 2011

I seriously need to go for lessons that teaches us how to write topic sentences.

Cyclical Transformation

Blogging is like a cyclical process. It used to be so popular that it once dominated the internet scene. Then, friendster came along before facebook declared itself boss. By the way, the hit counts to facebook has exceeded that of Pornography.

Next, twitter came along and your thoughts and expression are shorted to 140 characters. Maybe that is the reason why I cant seem to expand my thoughts and pointers quickly enough. Where do blog stand in all this changes? I guess we can say that it has become an avenue where we all come back to pen down our thoughts most intimate to us. A place where we feel that our thoughts can be openly shared without the scrutiny of your friends. There are some friends who are still reading it, but much lesser compared to 4-5 years ago.

The layout for blogger may have changed, but the deep cry for your thoughts to be penned down in this digital space is still undeniable. Well, that is for me. What about you?

Sick Feeling

Not physically, just mentally.

Woke up this morning to the same revolting feeling I have been experiencing the past week. It has been caused by the impending arrival of the assignment's deadline. I cannot help but develop a sense of disgust and rejection to it.

Can I defy the odds. Many a times, right before the journey has begun, we tell ourselves that we can overcome this time round. Well, who said it cost money to the things we say and think? The point is that, we will never know whether it is possible until the process starts. Like how it is now.


Fuckitty fuckitty fuck
oh my someone up there, please help me.

Fear

I talked about overcoming it this afternoon. Now, it is starting to creep into me. Going to fight this tough battle tonight.

Rock Bottom

Yes, the feeling sucks. I feel like I am stuck there right now.

Thursday, 22 September 2011

1. Guys don't actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.
2. Guys love flirts.
3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.
4. When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're not thinking the way he is.
5. "Are you doing something?" or "Have you eaten already?" are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.
6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
7. When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad characteristics.
8. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl's attention.
10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.
11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.
12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can't. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!
13. Guys cry!!!!!!!!
14. Don't provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.
15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.
16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.
17. When you touch a guy's heart, there's no turning back.
18. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...never mind!" would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.
19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.
20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
21. When a guy makes a prolonged "umm" or makes any excuses when you're asking him to do you a favor, he's actually saying that he doesn't like you and he can't lay down the card for you.
22. When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow."
23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.
24. Guys hate gays!
25. Guys love their moms.
26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.
27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't mean that the guy likes her.
28. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.
29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.
30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.
31. Like Eve, girls are guys EUR™ weaknesses.
32. Guys are very open about themselves.
33. It's good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don't let him wait that long.
34. No guy is bad when he is courting.
35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.
36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they're not that much pretty.
37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.
39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.
41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.
42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.
43. Guys virtually brag about anything.
44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.
45. Guys think too much.
46. Guys' fantasies are unlimited.
47. Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does!
48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!
49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.
50. It's not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they've been together for 3 years or more.
51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.
52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be matured and grow up.
53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.
54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.
55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.
56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he's sweating. You'll probably see that he is nervous.
57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.
58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."
59. Guys don't really have final decisions.
60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.
61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.
62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.
63. Guys believe that there's no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.
64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.
65. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.
66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.
67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.
68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.
69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!
70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
71. A guy's friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.
72. Don't be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.
73. Don't be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you'll be surprised.
74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.
75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.
76. Guys don't comprehend the statement "Get lost" too well.
77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.
78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.
79. Guys don't care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.
80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they'll realize they're wrong.
81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He's just too stubborn to deal with it.
82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.
83. Guys' weakest point is at the knee.
84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.
85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.
86. When a guy looks at you, either he's amazed of you or he's criticizing you.
87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.
88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.
89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you're with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.
90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!
92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.
93. When a guy says he can't sleep if he doesn't hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.
94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.
95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.
96. Girls are allowed to touch boys' things. Not their hair!
97. If a guy says you're beautiful, that guy likes you.
98. Guys hate girls who overreact.
99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships

Survivor Season 23 Episode 2

Future

Uncertain as it may seem, we all have to be prepared for it. Many at times, after each failure, people tend to become fearful of trying again. A sign of weakness? No. I guess it is something that every normal human being faces. There come a time when you have to pull yourself up without help from any other people. It is the time when willpower is all that it matters. But are we ready for it? Helpless. Standing here watching you lose everything just pains me. Just hope that you can be strong and pull yourself out of this misery. If only essay writing is like blogging,doing graffiti with punctuation, life would be so much simpler and happy. I only have one more ay left, and my word count is simply pathetic. I have done 2 drafts and I do not see the end result of it. The weather is not helping either. IN such a conducive weather, sleep should take priority.

Wednesday, 21 September 2011

Comment from anonymous reader!

Thanks to this stranger who commented on my last post. May u be blessed in whatever you do =) "These kinda things happen frequently and it's more likely due to the incongruence of how the other party perceives the importance of the friendships. And I do see where you come from, 'cos I'm one that invests a lot of emotions and effort into maintaining friendships as well. It's like my source of strength that keeps me going. I guess we are similar in this way! Don't feel that you are alone in this! (: Anyway, university life will get more and more hectic as more and more responsibilities pile on you. I regretted losing some friends due to my inattentiveness for the past few years (not everyone is interested in a simple phone call. LOL). Just remember, never stray away from this personal value of yours. I believe it will be valuable at some point of our lives. Don't feel bad for being different. Be proud and stay awesome! Push on, young one!" Suddenly, the motivation to blog shot up by tenfolds.

Lost

Feeling kind of lost. My dad Just told me that an engineering education or something that deal with Mathematics would be better. Just when I need the right inspiration, he has to shoot me down at this time. Not that I am blaming him or what, but it is not the right time at all. I came into this semester feeling very determined to get something out of it. Weighing among lifesaving, community service club, giving tuition and studies, I decided to choose the last 2. It is kind of hard to let go of something that you have trained so hard for over the past one year, and for CSC, the feeling of going back on one's promise is just sickening. With so many work piling up, this semester is slowly becoming my most dreaded nightmare. This week can be said to be the March and September holidays for NUS students. Sadly, I am not enjoying it at all. Supposed to clubbing tonight but tied down by work. Sometimes, I really wonder what am I trying so hard for? In the end, success depends on how you adapt to the changing world. Degree is just a back up, adaptability and capability are the 2 qualities that matters the most.

Saturday, 17 September 2011

Back

This is the countless of times that I have said, " It's been a long time since I am back at this blog..." It is really hard to maintain this blog if you do not have the discipline to do so. Discipline is the key. At this stage of our lives, where most of us have different commitments to adhere too. many of us start to drift off from one another. Some respond to you enthusiastically, but some, just totally ignore you. Some ask you out, but want to assume things that are not true to begin with. It struck me to know when you book someone 5 months in advance, the person can still go back on his promise. I don't deny that things may crop up the last minute, but when you know that the person don't put in the effort to place this appointment in the first place, you really know where you stand in this person's heart. No matter how much excuses he can come up with, it just saddens me to know that early booking is deemed redundant. Well, a single backing out of the appointment is alright, it may not matter much. However, right now, 2 more people are backing out. What is this? The numbers are not really the matter here, the focus here is more of the psychological impact it creates in the future meet ups. The actions right now will create the ripple effect, I am kind of PMS-ing now. Just some inner frustration in me. Oh well. And screw it. I got to pay $17.60 this morning. Why? Cause I woke up late for lecture. 9.41am for a 10am lecture. Best of all? I live in Bedok.